Catching Up!!

OK - so it's been some time since I wrote.

I have been deliberately weaning myself from the PC for a few days. This is all just getting so damn addictive.

I wake up with this heady rush, shooing everyone off to work and school, cleaning the house, getting the washing done, re-planning dinner, packing the kids sarmies for tomorrow, placating the Heir, and all the time in the back of my mind like a little pathetic voice: "turn me on, turn me on, see who thinks you are worthy to respond to, go on, go on, there are people that are prepared to talk to you - you are normal after all".

And the damded voice will JUST NOT SHUT UP. I have enough guilt issues without having to deal with this shit as well. I will spend as much time on the computer talking to my imaginary shrink - we will call him Dr Dennis - AS MUCH AS I WANT TO.

I have been stressing so much:

• The bloody business is sinking and the taxman as well as every other bloody debitor wants cash
• I am currently unemployed, however I should go look for a job.
• I am too old and overweight to find a job. Realistically speaking. There's a good blog waiting there...
• Mainly: I don't WANT to go look for another job.
• I had a good paying job (even if it wasn't particularly enjoyable) and if Lord & Master of the House did not STUFF IT UP with his dodgy partner deals, I would have still had my job and we would have done well. But listening to your Serving Wench? - Hah!! out of the question. This topic I doubt will ever come up for discussion except for this mention here....
• Mother and mother-in-law living with me. This will be a total seperate blog as clearly this one needs some serious ser-i-aa-s discussion.
• Two brother-in-laws & their wives (read here and my ex best friend) and two brothers and their wives do not contribute one financial cent to maintaining their parent. Clearly another topic rearing its ugly head. A long one at that. This might be just blog nr 1 the way I feel today.
• My step-son who is turning 21 in June is still on our pay-roll/maintenance. Not so much of a thanks there - all I see on Facebook are the party photos. Party?????? With who's money?????? When you are supposed to be studying with who's money?????? Cretin.

My ass is just getting bigger and bigger. Some strange German woman accosted me at the fleamarket and in a very 'gentle'way (she is a Reikimaster (yeah? Oooh! Aaah!) after all) decided she needs to speak to me about my needs, my obvious emotional issues and the fact that I clearly eat as a way to ease my pain and to hide myself behind. :-O

Well - you know when a stranger does this and then insists on hugging you - there are some issues at stake here.

Oh and my cat that I bought in Christmas is not a hugger, That stresses me out even more. I pick the damn thing up to kiss and he pulls a long neck, looks away rather stiffly: says "Meeeeeaaaaauuuuuwwwwww..."and then heads for the bottom om the nearest bed as soon as I can put him down.

I'll tame him yet. He came into my bedroom all by hisself today. One step closer. I'll suck his face off yet.

So Who Am I today?

A bad mood creature who's period started.

Cheerio Buds
Sleep well "Lekker slapies"!