Hello? Did Someone Switch On The Light?

We convince ourselves that life will be better once we are married, have a baby, then another.

Then we get frustrated because our children are not old enough, and that all will be well when they are older.

Then we are frustrated because they reach adolescence and we must deal with them. Surely we’ll be happier when they grow out of the teen years.

We tell ourselves our life will be better when our spouse gets his/her act together, when we have a nicer car, when we can take a vacation, when we finally retire.

The truth is that there is no better time to be happy than right now.

If not, then when?

My life will always be full of challenges. It is better for me to admit as much and to decide to be happy in spite of it all.

For the longest time, it seemed that life was about to start. Real life.

But there was always some obstacle along the way, an ordeal to get through, some work to be finished, some time to be given, a bill to be paid. Then life would start.

I am finally starting to understand that those obstacles are life.

This point of view helps me to see that there isn’t any road to happiness.
Happiness IS the road.

So, it is up to me to enjoy every moment.

To stop waiting for school to end, for a return to school, to lose ten kilo’s, to gain ten kilo’s, for work to begin, to get married, for Friday evening, for Sunday morning, waiting for a new car, for your mortgage to be paid off, for spring, for summer, for autumns, for winter, for the first or the fifteenth of the month, for your song to be played on the radio, to die, to be reborn… before deciding to be happy.

Happiness is this voyage, not a destination.

There is no better time for me to be happy than… NOW!

The above was the content of an e-mail that I received from my best friend today.

How strange that I would receive this now.

I have watched a program on a super morbidly obese woman who finally decided to have bypass surgery. Only to pass away two weeks after the op, leaving behind her 2 children aged 12 and 5.

Well – did that motivate me to start eating less. And not when?? Immediately.

I want to live healthier. I want to look better. I want to dress sexy. I miss THAT look that only a man can give you when you know you look fantastic. And other women give you the silent once over...

Don’t misunderstand me. I love my husband – but to just feel SEXY again… To be noticed by others, to be acknowledged for it.

I want my daughter to be proud of her mommy. Not the fat mommy hiding in the car with the clipped up housewife do and the mechanic hands (chipped nails, dry cuticles and car oil in the cracks of my hands! DIY...)

But the normal sized mommy (note I did not say thin or skinny mommy, as I have realised this is a physical impossibility). (I am realistic.)

With a semi-fashionable hair-do.

And normal clothes. Jeans - jeans what I would give to be able to wear a pair of denims again.

WITH a tenny T-shirt.

A summer dress.

With spaghetti straps.

So now it is diet or healthy eat days.

I have to lose 10 kilos.

That is starting point. I will worry about the rest when I have mastered this.

So hold thumbs for me…I have not thrown this towel in yet. I owe this to myself. I think now I have earned it.

So I have attached a pic of sunflowers. Because they MAKE ME HAPPY. Yes. Me. I did not post it for anyone else or because it matches the topic. I attached it because I like it.

And I think from here on, I will do more things that MAKE ME HAPPY.

Because my time to live and be happy is NOW, because I have realised tomorrow is too late.